Monday, July 25, 2011

Feast of St. James, Apostle

Today is the Feast of St. James, the first of the 12 Apostles to become a Martyr, and one of the four patrons of Equestrians. (The other three are Anne, George, and Martin of Tours.)


In his listing of the 12 Apostles, Mark places James and his brother John second only to Peter, and tells us that Jesus gave the two brothers a special nickname: "James, son of Zebedee, and John the brother of James, whom he named Boanerges, that is, sons of thunder" (Mark 3:17)


Peter, James, and John are the three disciples who accompanied Jesus at the Transfiguration.
(Matthew 17:1-9,  Mark 9:1-9,  Luke 9:28-36)
Today's Gospel (Matthew 20:20-28) recounts the story of how James and John sent their mother to ask Jesus if they could sit at His right and His left in the kingdom. This led to a teaching on discipleship and on Jesus' mission:  "Whoever wishes to be great among you shall be your servant; whoever wishes to be first among you shall be your slave. Just so, the Son of Man did not come to be served but to serve and to give his life as a ransom for many." (Matthew 20:26-28)

Almighty Father, 
by the martyrdom of St. James 
you blessed the work of the early Church.
May his profession of faith give us courage
and his prayers bring us strength.
We ask this through our Lord Jesus Christ, your Son, who lives and reigns with you and the Holy Spirit, one God, forever and ever. 
-Prayer for the Feast of St. James

And I also ask your blessing, St. James, on all who live under your patronage, whether by name or by profession. Obtain for them from God the graces that they need this day and all the days of their lives.  Amen.

Saturday, July 23, 2011

Reflection on Matthew 13:44

The following is a reflection on the first verse of the Gospel reading for the 17th Sunday in Ordinary Time (Matthew 13:44-52)...if only I had more time, I would work through the whole thing, but it is too much to take in all at once. Oh, the riches of the Word of God!

The kingdom of heaven is like a treasure buried in a field,
Ομοια εστιν η βασιελια των ουρανων θησαυρω κεκρυμμενω εν τω αγρω,
 

which a person finds and hides again,
ον ευρων ανθροπος εκρυψεν,

and out of joy goes
και απο της χαρας αυτου υπαγει

and sells all that he has and buys that field.
και πωλει παντα οσα εχει και αγοπαξει τον αγρον εκεινον.

The first half of the verse, “The kingdom of heaven is like a treasure buried in a field, which a person finds and hides again,” reminds me of the Blessed Virgin Mary. In Luke 2:19, we are told that “Mary kept all these things, reflecting on them in her heart.” And again, at Luke 2:51, it says that Jesus “went down with them and came to Nazareth and was obedient to them; and his mother kept all these things in her heart."

At the moment of the Incarnation, Mary was fully initiated into the mysteries of the Kingdom in a way that no other human being ever was or will be again. The Kingdom of God literally dwelled within her. The first thirty years of Jesus’ life, were, for the most part, hidden ones.  The Word was buried in the field of Mary’s womb. She knew He was there and rejoiced at His coming and His presence, but kept the revelation a secret from all people except a few others whom God had designated as his handmaidens, heralds, and guardians—Elizabeth, Simeon, Anna, and John the Baptist, and of course, Joseph the Just.
*****
In his reflections on this first half of the verse, Erasmo Leiva Merikakis writes:

“We may say, in fact, that the Parable of the Hidden Treasure is a metonomy for the Incarnation itself: the greatest of treasures—the Father’s Beloved—became Emmanuel and was hidden by the Holy Spirit within the good earth of the Virgin’s womb.” (Fire of Mercy, Heart of the Word II, 294)

“the treasure in question is the mystery of God giving himself to us in Christ. This treasure already lies closer to the world’s heart than we ourselves can ever be, worldlings though we are.” (Fire of Mercy, Heart of the Word II, 294)

*****
The discovery of the kingdom of heaven leads to abounding joy—της χαρας. A joy so great, in fact, that nothing can diminish it or take it away. Yet it takes everything we have...we are compelled to “sell” all that we have, holding nothing back. Integrity is key here. To purchase the field we must not only sell all that we have, but we must go through these transactions honestly, humbly, virtuously, lovingly—the kingdom demands nothing less; the kingdom inspires only this. We cannot engage in falsity, trickery, or prostitution of our goods in order to gain access to the field. If we do, the kingdom will be lost to us. Only love holds the key to the joyous stripping of self and careless self forgetfulness. This self-emptying is best expressed by the Greek word, κενοσις, which Paul uses in his letter to the Philippians as he speaks of Christ: « εαθτον εκενωσεν»  “emptied himself” (Philippians 2:7) Obedience is another key—just as Jesus was obedient to the Father (and to Mary and Joseph, see above/Luke 2:51), so also must we be obedient to God and to those with legitimate authority over us. And this loving obedience, in turn, will lead to freedom, joy, and the in-breaking of God’s kingdom among us...Maranatha, Lord Jesus, quickly come!

Dominican Preaching at its Best

Here are two videos from a man whose preaching had a direct impact on my vocation discernment more than two years ago as I was trying to figure out whether God wanted me to be a teaching sister or a contemplative nun. I later had a chance to meet him on the occasion of the Solemn Profession of one of our Dominican nuns, which was a beautiful experience.

Since yesterday was the feast of Mary Magdalene, who, as I said, is one of the major patrons of the Order of Preachers, the friars put together this short video reflection. It is clear, concise, and absolutely beautiful!

As I watched this video, I was reminded of the much longer video by Fr. Dominic Legge that changed my life in the spring of my sophomore year of college. Directed toward men discerning whether God was calling them to be friars, and focused on the topic of the Grace of the Holy Preaching, it nonetheless inspired me to give my life up to the hidden apostolate of prayer in the cloister. This video can be found on the Summit blog here (I left a comment under the pseudonym Caterina)or on the friars' websites here and here. All three links lead to the same video on different pages...how's that for thoroughness?! 

And this week's Word to Life is wonderful, as always. Fr. Gabriel Gillen, Fr. Bruno Shah, and Br. Innocent Smith have outdone themselves in discussing the readings for Mass tomorrow. 
***I have to remember to pray especially for Br. Innocent next Friday, as he will be hosting the show while the Fathers go on vacation!!!***

God bless my Friar Fathers and Brothers, as well as my Sisters!
We are one family in Christ, through the Motherhood of Mary and the patronage of Saint Dominic, Mary Magdalene, Saint Augustine, and the other saints of the Order!

Praedicator gratiae, nos junge beatis!

Desert Fathers!

The Desert Fathers say, "If you have a heart, you can be saved."

Unfortunately, when I jotted this quote down at some point during my last year at college, I failed to keep a note of the reference. It might be from Becoming Fire, but I have no clue what the page # is. Oh well. At least this isn't a term paper, right?

At any rate, I love this quote and keep it on a little card in a visible place at my desk because it is a good reminder that salvation is always close at hand. Yes, I have a heart. Yes, I can be saved--if I cooperate with God's mercy, grace, and above all, love which He is always extending to me.

Blessed be God forever, for ages unending, amen!

Friday, July 22, 2011

Hold on to your hope...

Yesterday, I stopped drinking coffee at breakfast, and this minor abstinence had a direct effect on my attitude at work. I realized that I was a lot more mellow, a little less wired, but still worked well, perhaps a tad slower, but not by much. Someone whispered in my heart, "I like you better this way, Mary." And I had to agree. Lord,  
I am weak, scattered, poor. I need to lean on someone for support every day of my life. To lean on someone and know that I am loved, cared for, not forgotten. Coffee is an artificial energizer--I want my energy, my strength, and all of my joy to come from You and You alone. No more coffee. Lord, I need You!

"The good news is that the Beloved loves to be leaned on!" (Martin, Ralph. The Fulfillment of all Desire,117)

Feast of St. Mary Magdalene

Today is the Feast of St. Mary Magdalene, a follower of Jesus and one of the principal patrons of the Order of Preachers. A high holy day, indeed! And I get to celebrate it by keeping an hour of Guard from 1:30-2:30 this afternoon, in the presence of the King of Kings!

These are my favorite lines from the Gospel for today:

"Jesus said to her, 'Mary!'
She turned and said to him in Hebrew, 
'Rabbouni,' which means Teacher." (John 20:16)

How many times has this dialogue, simple but profound, played itself out in my own life...Dear St. Mary Magdalene, you who knew Our Lord in the flesh before and after His death and Resurrection, pray for us, that we may call Him Teacher as you did, and love Him in complete fidelity and self-forgetfulness as you did!

**********
In her book for children Saint Dominic and the Rosary, Catherine Beebe recounts the story of how St. Dominic found a home for the women whom he had won over from the heresy of Albigensianism by his holy preaching of the Truth. Here are some excerpts of this beautiful tale:

"Each night he [Dominic] prayed fervently for the women who had come to him for help. He prayed that they would remain strong in their new faith. He prayed for a place in which they could live and practice it. But his prayers had gone unanswered. They must be answered soon or the converts' lives would be in danger. The Blessed Mother had never failed him before; surely she wouldn't now." (p. 88)

"One night as he walked along a hilltop, Brother Dominic was startled to see a strange light appear above him. The sky was dark except for the stars, but this was not a star...This light, whatever it was, moved across the sky...[and] moved downward until it came to rest over the village of Prouille where he had preached that day. The ball of light was very bright now, and he could see the outline of a building under it.
'Why, that is Saint Mary's Church,' he exclaimed. 'How strange that I can see it in the dark.'" (p. 89)

This happened three nights in a row, and on the third night, Dominic was finally sure...

"'Signadou, Signadou,' he cried out, which were his words for 'Sign of God, Sign of God.'" (p.90)
"The strange light the Brother Dominic called 'Signadou' shone on the Church of Saint Mary on July 22, the Feast of Saint Mary Magdalene, in the year 1206. That is a day that will always be remembered by the Dominican sisters. They will never forget that it was the Blessed Mother who pointed the way to their first convent." (p. 92)

***By the way, if anyone looks at the time stamp for this post, don't worry! I'm not up past midnight--I wrote this post ahead of time and scheduled it to post itself at 12:21. Why 12:21? The number 1221 (besides being a cool palindrome) has a twofold significance to me. First of all, it is the year on which my holy father St. Dominic died, so it is appropriate for this post. Secondly...well, those who know me may know the second reason...

***Also, from now on, Scripture will be highlighted in pale red, while all other sources will continue to be highlighted in blue. F.Y.I.

Blessed be God forever, for ages unending, amen!

Thursday, July 21, 2011

another pearl from my 'light reading'

 " 'Why is it,' I asked, 'that some things now seem lovely and just that not so long ago were so forbidding?'

'My dear Queen, for the teller of the tale, gratitude, love, and hope remain, because no matter what the story, the teller lives.'

'Is that all?'

'No. It is also your duty to look with a loving eye upon all you have been given. This is what you have done, and you have done well.'" (Helprin, Mark. A City in Winter, 107-108)

I had a long-ish, somewhat introspective reflection on why this particular quote struck me as I read it earlier this evening, but when I tried to publish it, it didn't go through for some reason. I think Someone has just subtly told me that I was about to publish TMI about my life, things He wants me to hold in my heart for now. Thankfully, there is not enough time tonight to re-gather all those words and write them out again. Suffice it to say, this quote could easily be applied to my life, especially over the last few years.

I give thanks to You, Lord God of Heaven and Earth, for all that I have been given: Forgiveness, Love, and grace to live in their light.

Love's Lessons

I haven't had any time to work with my yellow stars and war board recently, but have been thinking about the Love War and noticing things anyway. Inspired by the goings-on at Deep into Love, I have come up with the following commentary on my daily life and struggles:

1) Love doesn't panic...because it trusts in the Beloved.
Do I panic? Yes I do, far more often than I would like to admit...Why is this so?
a) I worry that there is not enough time to do x, y, z...and I Have to Do x, y, z, or ELSE.
b)  I am not good enough for the task ahead of me...I need help, I can't do it! (Somehow I forget that I'm never alone, and have all the help in the world. Even when I ask for help, I often fail to trust that help will be given me, and even as it is being given, I let myself be blinded to it by fear and anxiety.)
 c) someone has asked me a question...and oh, no, all of a sudden I have nothing to say. The answers have flown away. Again. And stuttering, stumbling over my own words, I panic and sound like a complete fool, a ne'er do well.

2) Love does not use the word "should," in a spirit of bitter regret or anxiety, because all that happens, happens according to God's loving plan and Providence.
 This is something I struggle with a lot...
a) Sometimes the "shoulds" get in the way of actually living. I should do x, y, z, but I didn't. And now I'm angry at myself for not doing x, y, z. And being angry is a waste of time and energy. So now I am angry at myself for being angry...and I panic. But Love doesn't panic, see 1) above. 

3) There have been more lessons running through my brain, but I've forgotten them...but Love forgives all!

Our God is the God of Love...God is Love! Blessed be God forever, for ages unending, Amen!

St. Lawrence of Brindisi on the word of God

Today is the feast day of one of the Doctors of the Church, St. Lawrence of Brindisi (1559-1619).

In the second reading from the Office of Readings this morning, I read these words from one of his sermons:

" The word of God is replete with manifold blessings, since it is, so to speak, a treasure of all goods. It is the source of faith, hope, charity, all virtue, all the gifts of the Holy Spirit, all the beatitudes of the Gospel, all good works, all the rewards of life, all the glory of paradise...For the word of God is a light to the mind and a fire to the will. It enables man to know God and to love him. And for the interior man who lives by the Spirit of God through grace, it is bread and water, but a bread sweeter than honey and the honeycomb, a water better than wine and milk. For the soul it is a spiritual treasure of merits yielding an abundance of gold and precious stones. Against the hardness of a heart that persists in wrongdoing, it acts like a hammer. Against the world, the flesh and the devil it serves as a sword that destroys all sin."

Quote of the Day

Here's an important reminder from Erasmo Leiva Merikakis’ reflections on Matthew’s 13:10-17         “Jesus has come to enlighten and save all, yet not all at the same time or in the same way. The disciples’ humble approach and Jesus’ own free election of each off them is the basis for their growth in understanding divine mysteries. They must abide humbly and lovingly close to the living Word if they are to enter into the mind of God.” (Fire of Mercy, Heart of the Word II, 198)

This is why my recent neglect of Lectio Divina is so tragic and needs to be rectified asap...I have no excuse. Lectio should be at the top of my priority list, and should be a given every day, as much as morning Mass is, more than the daily recitation of the Rosary. Yet I have not made ample space or time in my life to be faithful to this most vital source of grace in my prayer life...
 
Lord have mercy! From now on, with the help of  Your grace, I want to set aside at least half an hour. Yes, half an hour. I cannot promise--you know how easily I break my promises, but I want to do this. But above all, in succeeding or failing, I want to praise You forever! No ifs, ands, or buts. Love knows no conditions or bounds. You have given me all, all that I am belongs to You, Lord. And I ramble...My words are nothing. Your words are spirit and life, You have the words of everlasting life. Help me, I beg You, to come to know You and appreciate Your ineffable love as it is revealed in Holy Scripture. You who live and reign with the Father and the Holy Spirit, one God forever and ever, Amen.


Today will be given over to reviewing Ephesisans 1:1-14...If I can recite it slowly from memory at least 5 times without any mistakes, I will move on to Ephesians 1:15. If not, I will take my failure as a sign that I need to keep working on 1-14 some more...I am not in a hurry: the key is spend a regular + significant amount of time each day mumbling, repeating, ruminating the Word...seeking God's Face, God's Heart, hidden in the text out of love for me. 


Blessed be God forever, for ages unending, amen!

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

On this day in Church History...

...Pope Leo XIII died in 1903.

Why is this important to me?

1) Last semester, I read his famous encyclical Rerum Novarum in my class on Modern Christian Philosophers.
2) When St. Therese of Lisieux asked him for permission to enter the Carmel, he told her to be obedient to the decision of the superiors. As she persisted, he finally told her, "Go...go...you will enter if God wills it." (episode recounted in her Story of a Soul)
3) He was gloriously reigning as the Successor of Peter during the first two decades of Angelo Roncalli's (future Pope John XXIII) life.
4) Among others, he beatified Margaret Pole, Edmund Campion, Gerard Majella, John Baptist de la Salle, Louis de Montfort, and Thomas More. He also canonized many saints, including Bede the Venearable, Benedict Joseph Labre, John Baptist de la Salle, John Berchmans, Lawrence of Brindisi (whose day is tomorrow!), Peter Claver, and Rita of Cascia.
5) See the page on Pope Leo XIII at Saints.spqn.com for more information...
6) I need to learn more about the history of the Papacy, especially in the last century!

Think about it...he's right, of course!

Today's quote is from Mark Helprin's version of Swan Lake (beautifully illustrated by Chris Van Allsburg). I was reading it for fun last night, and got hit over the head with this one...had to stop and read it a few more times...beautiful!

“This was long ago, and in many ways the time was so different that you would hardly know it, except in your heart—for your heart is quick and right to tell you that all things that matter are more or less the same as they have been and will be, and that however young you are, however happy you may be, somehow you know them, somehow you know sadness; somehow, you have been there.” (Helprin, Mark. Swan Lake. p.3) 

Gloria Patri, et Filio, et Spiritui Sancto,
Sicut Erat in Principo, et Nunc, et Semper, et in Saecula Saeculorum.
Amen. Fiat.

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

Here's an interesting suggestion:

Don Angelo Roncalli (later known as Bl. Pope John XXIII) "wished to follow his spiritual father and superior among the Priests of the Sacred Heart, who always loved to repeat, 'Let us go...with our heads in the sack of Divine Providence.'" (from Mario Benigni and Goffredo Zanchi. John XXIII: The Official Biography, p.105)

Oh, to seek only to do the will of God, and to learn to see things aright:  to be able to discern and believe with our whole hearts that everything that we experience in this life takes place in accord with God's plan of love and mercy for us...yes, I want to live with my head in the "sack of Divine Providence," too!
...Lord Jesus Christ, have mercy on me!

Monday, July 18, 2011

More evidence...and Quote of the Day

I’ve already counted beyond 1000, but I keep losing track of God’s superabundant gifts of love that have graced my life over the last few months down to today, and it's always good to begin again...so here’s the latest count from recent days:

1000+X+1...22
  1. time to marvel at the yellow swallowtail butterfly in my own backyard
  2. swallows (“birds of the air”) reminding me every time I see them: God loves and cares even for me!
  3. Letter from a dear friend, with news and lots of love and laughter, and yes, even prayer!
  4. Erasmo Leiva-Merikakis says, "The Eucharist is the ordinary means by which God's kingdom on earth is multiplied" (Fire of Mercy, Heart of the Word II, 254)...I had to think about that one for a bit...ordinary?!!! Depends on what you mean by 'ordinary,' I guess! (He's right, though, from a certain point of view, thanks be to God for that!)
  5. precious family time, more and more precious every day
  6. chance to speak with my father on the phone, sharing memories of yesterday and stories of today...remembering Adam. (May he rest in peace!)
  7. borrowed flip-flops (she wore them on her honeymoon!) carry my feet on an errand of love in the morning
  8. talking about the amazing bean plants and heliotropism with my mother (no, I never stopped being homeschooled...!)
  9. wineberries to share with sister and brother at the Bay
  10. sister who plays the “Ode to Joy” at full volume on the stereo over and over in the afternoon...
  11. ...and walks with me down the rails in the evening.
  12. patient brother who doesn’t seem to mind my confused commentary and questions about LotR as we watch it together on a lazy summer Sunday
  13. flying chocolate ice cream...
  14. on hands and knees cleaning it up...remembering the Novitiate Stairs (Tuesday morning cleaning! I miss Tuesdays in the convent, too! Especially Confession Tuesdays!)
  15. looking forward to my father’s homecoming tomorrow night!
  16. it's all in the technique... whether I'm peeling potatoes just in time for breakfast, cutting Cranberry Chocolate Chip Banana Bread, or sweeping the floor of the Convent's Laundry (how I miss Wednesday mornings there!)...but I've so much to learn about techinque!
  17. beautiful weather for a walk after dinner on Sunday...fallen tree by the dam for quiet prayer time and preparation of the next day’s Mass readings
  18. humility to realize that I am fallen too...only by grace do I live and love!
  19. I am God’s possession, only in this do I find my dignity, my redemption (Ephesians 1:14)...
  20. ...committing myself to try to be more faithful to Ephesians Lectio and memorization in the coming days, weeks, and months. Lord, have mercy and help me!
  21. God’s quiet whispering in my soul over and over again, as many times as I need to hear it: “Slow down...breathe...you are mine, and I love you!”
  22. Love always wins over hatred in the end. Always. Even if the weeds are allowed to grow with the wheat for a time...Love always wins! 
Update: Monday's gifts...1000+X+11...
  1. another Psalm added to my list of favorites...if I had a list...hm, should I have a top ten list? If so, which would they be? 118 for sure, and now 73, too...and there are others. I'll have to look them up later.
  2. the appearance of CFR's--two of them! And the two discerners are still here, too, if only for a time...(Lord, help them to persevere in seeking and doing Your will!)
  3. robins. Even though it's not spring, it still makes me happy to see them outside my window.
  4. first day of work graces...
  5. office ladies 
  6. names of friends and strangers flashing before my eyes, all invitations to prayer
  7. his joking "let there be light"
  8. finding of a system, falling into a rhythm
  9. corner office breezes
  10. walking home with midday prayer psalms on my lips
  11. ...and many more gifts to come, straight from His Heart!
Joining the Gratitude Community at A Holy Experience today and every Monday:


Saturday, July 16, 2011

Eternal rest...

...grant unto her, o Lord, and let perpetual light shine upon her!

My Sister Mary of the Pure Heart, OP. died early in the morning on July 14th...

Besides being on the vocations committee, she was the choir director and a regular organist for the community. She will be greatly missed, but I praise God with the community for his mercy toward her. He called her home to himself about a week after a difficult operation had taken place, thus ending her suffering on earth.

May the angels lead you into Paradise, dear Sister!

De Profundis --Psalm 130
Out of the depths I cry to you, O Lord, Lord, hear my voice
O let your ears be attentive to the voice of my pleading.
If you o Lord should mark our guilt, Lord, who would survive?
But with you is found forgiveness, for this we revere you.
My soul is waiting for the Lord, I count on his word
My soul is longing for the Lord more than watchman for daybreak
Let the watchman count on daybreak, and Israel on the Lord
Because with the Lord there is mercy and fullness of redemption
Israel indeed he will redeem from all its iniquity...

May Sister Mary of the Pure Heart rest in peace...
Amen. Alleluia.

Feast of Our Lady of Mount Carmel

In all my excitement over the "Love War," I almost forgot to mention today's feast!

There have been times when I considered hiding myself in Carmel, following in the footsteps of St. Teresa of the Andes and St. Therese of Lisieux...and though I have a Dominican vocation, I will always remember the example of these and other holy Carmelites who have blessed me with their example and prayers.

While I was in the cloister in June, I was introduced to another holy Carmelite: Bl. Elizabeth of the Trinity. The following passage from the "Praise of Glory" was so beautiful, I had to copy it down, word for word, and even though it is rather long, here it is:

"Yes, we are weak--indeed, I may say that we are nothing but misery; but He well knows that.  He delights in forgiving and raising us up, in bearing us in Himself, in His purity and infinite sanctity. In this way, He purifies us by continual contact with Him. He wishes us to be stainless, and He Himself will be our purity! We must allow ourselves to be transformed into His image, which will be accomplished simply by loving Him ceaselessly with such a love as causes unity between those who love. I wish to be a saint that I may glorify my Divine Master; ask Him to make me live for love alone, which is my vocation. Let us unite ourselves to Him, so that our days may be in continual communion with Him; let us awake in love, deliver ourselves to love all day by doing the will of the good God, in His sight, with Him, in Him, for Him alone; let us give ourselves incessantly in the way in which He wishes; then, when night comes after a colloquy of love in our heart throughout the time, let us sleep again in love. Perhaps we may know of faults and infidelities on our part, let us abandon them to love which is a consuming fire, and thus we shall have our purgatory." (Praise of Glory, 117)
(I added the italics to her words)

...truly, those are words of one who loves much! And they could all be applied to the way the Blessed Virgin lives in love for God alone!

Blessed Mary, Our Lady of Mount Carmel, pray for all your children who belong to the Carmelite Order and who wear your holy scapular!

The War Board

When I'm working, this board is covered in stars.
The stars are organized in the four columns according to subject. 
The hearts represent the color coding on the stars, so that I can sort them easily if they ever get mixed up as I'm taking them in and out of the War Folder. For example, stars with a blue heart on them go in the "Time and Talents" column.
One by one, over the coming weeks, I hope to take the stars with negative thoughts written in red ink up into the "Individual Attention" box. Once they are there, I will pray, talk to them a bit, pray, try to understand where they are coming from, pray, acknowledge both the truth and the falsity in them, pray, prepare my defenses for the next time they pop up in my life, and pray...
Last of all, the Blue Dot represents surrender (to God's love and His Will, not to the negative thoughts!) and peace.
I'm also thinking about writing positive responses, (including Scripture quotes, prayer ejaculations, and yes, maybe even affirmations...) and real truths in blue ink on more stars...but that will come later.
That's enough war-work for today!
Praise be to God for the gift of my life!

Fighting the "Love War"

This is the front of my War Folder...
 

...this is the back...

...and this is the last thing I look at before and after working with my stars...

 ...yes, stars. My negatives are now written on post-it stars. And I am using my blue marker board as a training space. So now I've got a pile of yellow stars with ugly red words on them...

Call me incredibly grateful...not only am I part of the Conspiracy of Love, but now I am also part of the "Love War." It's about time.

Oh yes, I have two quotes for today: 

Jesus says, "Walk while you have the light, so that darkness may not overcome you." -John 12:35b...and I pray: walk with us, Lord, all through this day, all through our lives, as we learn to live in the light of Your love!!!

Westly says, "We are men of action, lies do not become us." "The Princess Bride"

Friday, July 15, 2011

In which I quote Fire of Mercy Heart of the Word and cite it correctly for the first time :P

I love this comment on Matthew 12:15--
“Blessed be that need and even that despair which destroys our illusion of well-being! Blessed be that illness which gives us wings to fly to the Physician!...Blessed be the mediocrity that teaches us that we cannot expect salvation from ourselves!” (Merikakis, Fire of Mercy, Heart of the Word II, p. 85)
...as much as I hate my mediocrity and moments of ugliness, I know Merikakis is right. But how much more blessed is God, the Divine Physician! May all of his children fly to him always, to him alone who can heal us, and, imploring his mercy, receive it with thanksgiving and joy.
now I have to go back and clean up the rest of the citations...sigh.  Maybe someday I'll learn to do things right in the first place. ;P
     At least they should all be labeled and easy to find, praise be to God for that!

St. Bonaventure's beautiful reading

This  is the page on which Fr. Z. reads one of the most beautiful readings in the cycle of readings for Office of readings (how many times can I use the word 'readings' in one sentence?). My other favorite reading is the one from one of St. Bernard's homilies about the Annunciation, (the text can be found here.) But I always look forward to Bonaventure's day, just so I can read about Christ the Door...

Anyway, here are the first few lines of Bonaventure (full text here, thanks, Hermit Brother!):
"Christ is both the way and the door. Christ is the staircase and the vehicle, like the throne of mercy over the Ark of the Covenant, and the mystery hidden from the ages. A man should turn his full attention to this throne of mercy, and should gaze at him hanging on the cross, full of faith, hope and charity, devoted, full of wonder and joy, marked by gratitude, and open to praise and jubilation."

and it only gets better from there!

I love St. Bonaventure!

Thursday, July 14, 2011

Kirie Eleison

One more...because I can't listen to the other two without thinking of this one also...
(this one needs no lyrics!)