At the Foot of the Cross

 Listening to Kathryn Scott's At the Foot of the Cross right now...a perfect song for today...

Here are Kathryn Scott's beautiful lyrics, story afterward:

(by Fra Angelico)

 At the foot of the cross
Where grace and suffering meet
You have shown me Your love
Through the judgment You received

And You've won my heart
Yes You've won my heart
Now I can

Trade these ashes in for beauty
And wear forgiveness like a crown
Coming to kiss the feet of mercy
I lay every burden down
At the foot of the cross

At the foot of the cross
Where I am made complete
You have given me life
Through the death You bore for me

I'm laying every burden down
I'm laying every burden down 

This afternoon, I was sent home early to rest after a good talk with the matriarch across the road. She is so good to me, and I am so grateful for all her help getting through this time of transition in my life. It's been busy lately, and I'm trying to figure out how to balance everything--helping her, family life, spiritual life...ideally everything would come together organically and overlap, and I would not waste so much time on the internet when I come home in the evenings!

But I am not so good at time management these days. I've got to start going cold-turkey on the internet, or something almost as strict. It's nearly time to give up on this blogging thing. It was good this summer, but now it's becoming a burden, so quickly, and I've got to learn to let go of everything that holds me back and keeps me from getting to bed at a decent hour at night. Drafting posts for the next day doesn't help, and I can't imagine having a blog and not posting on every feast day, every experience in my life, significant or not...it's becoming a bit of an addiction, and I'll definitely have to pray about this. Either way, there are only 23 days left until my entrance into the convent, so time is limited anyway!

I'm laying every burden down...and I am grateful for every manifestation of the Cross in my life, especially on this day. Though I've run from every single splinter of the Cross, and screamed, and been absolutely contrary all my life, I want to turn around and embrace God's will for me forever, in joy and in sorrow, in strength and weakness, in sickness and in health, until death.

I'm laying every burden down...